the meaning of love is.....?????

i recently wrote a little passage on my away on AIM and it appears that i still have a little more that i need to say. to bring people up to speed, here is what i wrote...

"i now know that whatever happens, happens. and it happens for a reason. ive tried numerous times to understand what is to me just un-understandable. i understand that what you want can be manipulated with what you actually have. Dont mis-interpret, im all for love and being happy, but thats just it. to me, happiness with someone is built on a connection, without that connection what is there? just lost hope and soaking about the past. love is built on a solid relationship between two people. when you realize you love someone, its because almost everything about that person makes you happy. NOT what you wish he can be and more. if you have to consistently question anything, its for a reason. its something telling you its not love. dont confuse yourself with wanting to be loved so bad that you mistake love for being something else. i know whats going on and i wish more people did too. look inside."

with that said not only am i losing faith in people knowing what true love is, but im losing my own meaning of love. i dont know what to think anymore, because i simply dont know! maybe when i "find" love it will show me, but until then i cant trust that love truly exists. ive seen too many times what "love" has done to people. some yearn for it so bad that when they meet a guy and start liking them they think that ever little nice thing they do means love. but on the contrary, when he starts doing all the wrong things for too long of a time, they still believe its love. in my opinion when too many people love too many times, it starts to get old. and even they start to wonder. i hope that people start to see love for what it truly is and stop blaming its "existence" for everything wrong in their life. if love truly exists, which i have a feeling it might. then appreciate it for what its worth, and move on.